STILL MAY, DAMNIT

If you look around you now or think of the many people you know, apart from your own family, how many do you think will remain in your life, say, forty to fifty years from now?

Yes, some relationships and friendships last forever but what if that person is not really a partner or a friend?

This one girl has been a part of my life for a while now. Over the many many years, we have been through some good and horrible things together and have emerged pretty much the same than when we started. The universe brings us together from time to time even when neither of us asks for so.

Make no mistake, she is not a friend, neither is she the enemy. I hate her, I despite her, I loathe her, but I do care about her, I like her, and I love her. There has always been a degree of infatuation and addiction and attachment between us.

But if the universe decides to part us forever, I will be both ecstatic and devastated.

I do not know what is hate and love combined together, but I know only one can last forever.

(by the way, nothing is gay about this)